Rye, NH
As I sit, perched on a perfect chair-like structure made of large rocks, couples stroll leisurely passed me, hand in hand, smiling and laughing in the morning sunlight. Dogs playfully wander between the ocean and the stone-filled hillside, enjoying freedom from their leashes, if only for a moment. My senses can’t help but engage fully in the sights, sounds and smells surrounding me. The fragrances emanating from the beach dance playfully, blending the salty air with the fragrant roses lining the beaches. Meanwhile the echo of waves break along the shore composed of varying colored rocks, fine sand, and an endless array of sea-life left behind in the receding tide. The soft, barely perceptible breeze, gently tousles my hair as I gaze at this beautiful scene playing before my eyes. I am happy and content… profoundly at peace.
The past two weeks have been glorious – filled with adventures around the east coast. I’ve been able to spend time sipping coffee with friends while we reminisce about past adventures, process current realities and pray over the upcoming stages ahead of us; sharing experiences, best practices and encouragement with both new and old colleagues from colleges across the United States; exploring new restaurants, coffee shops, boutiques, beaches, towns, lighthouses, museums, cities, and hiking trails; and making new connections with Airbnb hosts, restaurant owners, higher education professionals, and neighbors. It has been an absolute treat and has brought me tremendous joy. A timely gift from the Lord as He takes me on another unexpected, yet energizing turn in my life.
Harpers Ferry, WV
Years ago I told the Lord that I would follow Him wherever He guides me. Since then, I’ve engaged in many conversations with him about what this means – some filled with anticipation and others with dread. The process of listening always takes a different shape. Given my strong stubborn heritage (thanks mom & dad), I’ve had some 2×4 moments with God where I made my demands or strongly shared my desires. In these scenarios, God gently prods me with a 2×4 until I step back – eventually letting Him lead the way. I’d like to think that with age, and some added wisdom from experience, I step aside and listen more attentively now… even if I’m uncertain about what might come next. God has been so patient with me and for this, I am grateful. God has proven to be so very faithful.
Since returning to the Twin Cities, I’ve been in long conversations with the Lord about who He has created me to be and what His purpose is for my life – how I lead, what my gifts are, the ways in which He uses me to influence others, my weaknesses, the roles He has placed me in, what it looks like to be a good ___ (fill in the blank with: friend, sister, daughter, granddaughter, employee), and thousands of others. It has been a season of questioning – sometimes deeply painful and other times entirely delightful – all times beautiful and transforming. It is through this refining process that I have been sharpened, molded, and reshaped.
As I’ve slowly emerged from this season, a new understanding of myself, my values, and my priorities have surfaced as well. As common with many, my career has played a significant role in my life. The past year, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking through my relationship with my career, and in turn, my relationship with the Lord. Through this season of reflecting, I have discovered how closely my identity is attached to my career and that, perhaps, I could benefit from taking some time to reorient and refocus on the Lord. It was around the time of this this ‘aha moment’ that a unique opportunity came my direction.
Several years ago, I began wondering about working outside of Higher Education, but didn’t have the direction from the Lord to make a change. When I began conversing with a company that is developing an educational platform called Clinical Training Manager that seeks to better prepare students studying Social Work and Counseling for their field of study, my love of Higher Ed and my desire to serve in a different industry collided. The company moved quickly in their pursuit of me – which was humbling and a true gift.
2015-16 Student Leaders (among many other)
Throughout the process, I felt the Lord’s presence in new ways as I prepared to step away from a field I know and am quite comfortable serving. I have absolutely loved the field of Student Development – giving 110% as often as possible by investing in the transformative work of developing young leaders as they grow through leadership roles, academics, roommate conflict, disability accommodations, advocacy, event planning, and preparing for the future. I’ve given so much of myself and have been radically changed by the thousands of students and colleagues I’ve worked with at Geneva College, Simpson University, and Bethel University. Naturally, there has been a number of emotions wrapped up in this job change – which is why it has taken me some time to figure out how best to authentically share my journey. One of the most beautiful things I’ve experienced through this decision making process is that the Lord has faithfully provided incomprehensible peace since making the decision to work for Procentive. And for this I am grateful.
I recently opened the pages of Lauren Winner’s brilliant book, Wearing God. She quotes another author within her writing (another favorite of mine) and I’ve been chewing on it since reading it last week. Barbara Brown Taylor writes, “’The Kingdom of heaven is like this,’ [Jesus] said over and over again, comparing things [his followers] knew about with something they knew nothing about and all of a sudden what they knew had cracks in it, cracks they had never noticed before, through which they glimpsed bright and sometimes frightening new realities… Every created thing was fraught with divine possibility; wasn’t that what He was telling them? Every ho-hum detail of their days was a bread crumb leading them into the presence of God, if they would just pick up the trail and follow.” I love this because Taylor is challenging us – well Jesus is – to pay attention, to notice details, to watch and observe the regular parts of our lives. And through intentionally taking note, we can see glimpses of heaven… of our faithful Father guiding us into His presence.
New Hampton, NH
As I sit here in the presence of the mysterious and vast Atlantic Ocean, I can’t help but wonder if difficult seasons – ones where we have to re-evaluate, face ourselves, and search for God – are also the times when we begin to see cracks and glimpses of God in the midst of our seemingly mundane or ordinary lives. Through this, our very own lives become “fraught with divine possibility” and we are led into the transforming presence of God. This has been true for me in recent months. It has been absolutely delightful to see and experience God’s presence throughout this season of conversations with God.
Today marks my one month work-anniversary at Procentive. Here’s to seeking the Lord in this new season. It’s riddled with potential!
Cheers.
My stone pillar in Newport, RI – built as a reminder of God’s faithfulness.